i wish i didn't feel like the only person in the world who always has to push an issue super hard just to get someone to look my way.
or an even more practical situation would be something like me just trying to get someone to talk to me or LISTEN to me.
i have to practically kick and scream just to get someone to listen.
and if they complain about that. i have to whisper.
i can't ever just talk.
always pushing to get to someone.
and just when i almost get where i want to be.
something pulls me back.
push. pull. push.
and just when i'm on the edge and i need someone to pull me back.
they push.
